What are you living for?

Hello again, my friend.

Time flies so fast; this week went by in the blink of an eye.

Another week of boring, monotonous work in pursuit of something more.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking recently, especially about my “why”.

Like, why am I doing all of this?

For myself? Family? Future wife?

Watching a recent interview with Chris Langan drove my thoughts in a new direction (click here to watch if you want).

After giving it a lot of thought, I came to the conclusion that I am not driven enough by materialistic desires anymore.

I mean, sure, I do the work, and I work more than most people ever do.

It’s just that I didn’t have much of a stimulus until now.

I was just doing something because there was nothing else to do.

I talk a lot about self-restriction in my Telegram (click to join), and that self-restriction is probably the reason I was able to get to where I am today.

I simply quit everything I was doing before - drinking & smoking, video games, hanging out with losers.

And once I started doing something, it wasn’t long before I realized that there was no going back for me.

So, self-restriction and running away from my previous life were probably the two most significant drivers of mine until recently.

Now, things are slightly different.

I now want to be something higher than I am now, in every aspect of my life.

Mentally, physically, and most importantly - spiritually.

Making money surely needs to be the first step because it gives you security and freedom.

However, since I’m not interested in money or fame or status, I needed to choose something to drive me after I’ve secured my finances.

And I chose to pursue truth, meaning, and wisdom.

These things are so rare to find nowadays.

People are too indulged in hedonistic desires.

People don’t want to understand themselves since they’re too busy with life problems.

I recently thought about this - can you imagine being born into the world and not getting to know the reality of it?

The thing is - most people are just ignorant, and this ignorance costs them their life.

I never really had any fears, but now I know one - to die a meaningless and ignorant death.

To die not understanding myself and the reality around me.

That’s why I make a conscious decision to pursue these virtues.

That’s why now I restrict myself even more and fight with modern pleasures.

We strayed too far away from meaning.

You should think of what drives you too, before you even make enough money to be free.

Who or what are you doing this for?

What do you want out of this life?

Is it pushed onto you by external influence, or is it what you truly want at your core?

Think about that.

Thank you for the read, and until next time,

Nurysein